'"Make it Meaningful"

Well where do I begin???

Friday 30th June 2006. :
Had a appointment with the blood specialist but did not get many answers other than that I need to have more test done.

Next I had a appontment with my OB/Gyno after checking usual things he sent us off for another ultrasound ( i knew the news was not going to be good from the look on his face) At the ultrasound it was confirmed that our baby had passed away sometime during the past 2 weeks.

I will not go into to much detail but you all can imagine how we felt. Luckly I have the best hubby in the world who was also heartbroken but was able to call family and a few close frineds and let them know what had happened.

Because my blood platlets were still below 50 the Dr's were unable to treat me in Bendigo so I was sent to Melbournes Royal Womens Hospital, but because it was a Friday night things were going to be put on hold until Monday.

The weekend was just a blur of emotions and a million tears, but the hardest thing we had to do was to tell our other children that the baby had died. I will never ever forget the look in Georgia's eyes. They have asked many questions, some easy to answer and some really hard but we are trying to be as honest as possiable.

Monday passed with still no word from melbourne, at this stage I was really wanting to get it over and done with.

Tuesaday at last some news, I was to be down in Melbourne at 9.00am wednesday morning.

Wednesday morning we arrived in Emergancy (which is where we were told to go) Some how all my records had been lost somewhere between my DR and the hospial which meant I had to have a million more blood test and go for another ultrasound (very stressful) but luckly there was 1 Dr who had been intouch with my Dr so she knew what was going on but she still could not do much as there were no records for her to look back on.

Finally I was admitted and was told that I was booked into theature at 3.3o
The whole situation was made more complicated because I have had 3 caesars and the low platlet count so there was lots of last minuite things going on between the Doctors, blood specialists, theatre staff etc. the procedure went well with no complications and i stayed in over night. (usually it is just a in and out thing)

Friday 7th July:
I feel fine today other than a bit tired.
Mentally and emotionally it will take time but at the moment I feel we are all going a long as good as can be expected. I think that because we have go our Fiji trip coming up in 3 weeks it is giving us someting to focus on and look forward too. We also have brought a new car (KIA Grand Carnival)(we signed the deal before all of this happened) so that is something the kids are looking forward to as well.

I have started a personal journal and have found it to be very helpful, I feel much better after getting all the stuff going round in my head out on to paper, it makes it all seem a bit clearer. (if you know what i mean)

I am sorry if there are spelling mistakes but I can't be bothered going back and checking them (not sure if there is spell check on this or not)

Again thank you all for your support and well wishes over the past week, it has meant a lot to me and my family.

Love to you all

Cherie xxxooo